Friday, November 21, 2008

Week 38

This morning's email tells me that my baby is now the length of a leek; but, try as I might, I can't imagine the length of a leek; it seems too small; it seems as if we've gone backwards, as if the peppercorn-cum-plum-cum-peach stage shouldn't be such a distant memory. Two nights ago, I slept fitfully, and in the earliest hours, I woke up and reached for my belly. I had been sleeping in a strange position, a position that when I reached for her made her so much smaller, and the room was dark and I was still half-dreaming, and it seemed, if only for a second, she was gone. In that moment my heart broke a thousand times. I suppose my body is trying to prepare me for all the love I'll feel towards my daughter; God, I hope I can handle it.


little miss mel said...

I didn't know leeks could be 20 inches long. Maybe they are still talking about head to rump? :)

Not long now girl!

Where's the belly shot? Do we have to be satisfied with the 36 week one here on out? heheh

kate said...

oh sweetie, this post gave me chills! i love you so much and i can't believe the time is near for the little one to arrive. see you soon...xoxoxoxoxoxo

Linda said...

Bless your heart! We are getting excited about the immenent arrival of the little one! It's not long now and there is so much to look forward to! jonas is tryimg to help my type this, so any typos belomg to him!
love, Linda

Anonymous said...

The moment a child is born, the mother is also born. She never existed before. The woman existed, but the mother, never. A mother is something absolutely new.